October 11 - What's up girl?

Well the answer is nothing I suppose! Been over two months since my last entry but other matters have taken priority in preventing further blog entries along with a holiday in between.

As usual, I always have further thoughts about my life and associated things to it but don’t we all when it comes to ourselves? During this period, it has been no different with emphasis on my relationships with other girls again. I have concluded but sadly I have just a handful of friends but there is many reasons for this including I am not perfect - sorry girls but that is me! However, I do find some people, shallow when it comes to friendships, say one thing and then do the opposite! Yes, it takes two to make a friendship and I have tried to keep in contact but it seems to no avail in some case’s - falling on deaf ears springs to mind, not for the first time either.

August & September were sparse for outings unfortunately with a total of one! Already this month being half way already, I have doubled it in more ways than I could imagine! More of this later. The only occasion was early September, meeting Kristina for a quiet night in the Village. A nice evening was had including Villaggio’s for a bite to eat and customary visit to one of the nicest bars if not the nicest in the Village, The Molly House. If you have not been, make it one of your priorities - nice atmosphere, lovely surroundings and very friendly bar staff.

After the above outing, priorities change as it was holiday time which more or less put me in a box for those weeks. Regardless a good and memorable time was had. In between, more clothes purchases was had with emphasis on dresses were some success was gained - my results will be seen in due course! More clothes means space but sadly I don’t have any spare now which means a clear out. Well manage to find 49 items that I could do without, so some have and others will find there way on to Ebay in attempt to offset some recent expenditure. So far, so good but I sense another clear out is required though.

Finally October arrived and after two months, finally had a evening out with Tina again, unusually in the confines of the Village unlike earlier outings. It had been too long since we seen each other but there are numerous reasons for that but here is not the place to explain. My next outing, well was the weekend just gone but that will form a separate entry in this blog which hopefully will follow in the next few days - so watch this space if you are interested.

August 11 - Quality

Hello blog, its been a while since I wrote anything but plenty to write about though. Currently, we are in the midst of crazy sad happenings in various parts of the country were some people have decided they wish to help themselves to goodies from shops just for the sheer hell of it, no rhyme or reason for it! Personally round the lot up, lock them up and throw away the key.

Anyway, its not about them but about me! So what has been happening which is a good question. Of course a few outings especially away from the Village which has been enjoyable including a nice surprise too. Although it seems that I’m not going out as often, yes just 6 outings (3 in June, 3 in July) since my last blog entry but made up in quality to say the least!

In June, there was a couple of outings to the Village meeting up with some friends for the Northern Angels evening meal at Velvet - most enjoyable especially meeting Crystal from the North East, a lovely girl and one I hope I will meet again. The other at the end of the month was meeting Tina & Mandy at Eden and doing the usual rounds. In between, met up with Tina for an afternoon / evening outing in Southport. Although the weather was mix, an enjoyable time was had including visiting Jennie at “Wigs R Us” who met “me” for the first time. Jennie complimented me on my appearance which was nice but the purpose of the visit was to get my “hair” restyled. Afterwards, Tina & I went for a walk on the prom and down Lord St before we eventually arrived at “Lings” - an excellent Chinese Restaurant on King St. Although it was quiet, the food was excellent along with a lovely and very friendly host. If you ever visit Southport and seeking a bite to eat, “Lings” is highly recommended.

July outings were quality without a doubt and all for different reasons. As some of my friends already know, I don’t do Sparkle as it is not for me. However, I had decided to meet Tina & Mandy on the Sunday after in the Village and a lovely day was had. I was “me” for over 12 hours and took the chance to wear a couple of different outfits due to the kind generosity of Tina in letting me use her hotel room. Strange really, it seem to be a normal day in the Village although it was the day after Sparkle. Later on in the month, much to my surprise but never the less pleased, MR had agreed to come out with me away from the Village which the first time she had done this - a positive step forward to say the least. The emphasis of the outing was to keep it simple, so we headed to Southport for a quick visit calling at Wigs R Us and then onto Cheshire Oaks and met up with my sister for a bite to eat at Café Rouge. In all , no one notice and it turned out to be an enjoyable outing and one that MR enjoyed too. May be it could happen again? The best part of this outing at a personal level, I was out with two ladies and from Joe Public’s point of view, it was 3 ladies having a girly outing! The final outing was yet another with my good friend Tina. On this occasion I met Tina in Alderley Edge and visited Gawsworth Hall & Gardens although that was not our intended location. Going around the gardens, it became apparent it was a popular place for picnic’s and gazebo’s but also noted during the months of July & August, unknown to us, it becomes a concert / show venue for a variety of entertainment acts including much to our surprise, a burlesque evening. The latter is something to think about next year? After that, we headed to “The Merlin” in Alderley Edge for a bite to eat and as it turned out, a nice evening watching the setting sun amongst other people who were also having food, drink, and being with friends for a laugh & chat - this was normal as it could ever be and no one seem to be aware of our presence - clearly we had presented ourselves as female!

Well on that note which is what some of us are striving for, a nice way to end this entry.

May 2011 - Feel alone, then again?

Another entry on my blog - well will be in the next few days but in the meantime, KD feels alone and talks to herself too - mmm the loneliness of the long distance (TGirl) runner come's to mind and my apologies to the film of the same name. I wish to go out but not on my own or to the Village - is that a crime? Finally got around to updating this entry, albeit in early June 11, so please read on!

Well time to play catch up on my blog. So what has happened since I last wrote here. Well a few good things as well as the usual frustrations but hey that is life sometimes.

Although I’ve been out three times during that time, not as many I would of liked but they have been good outings though. In mid May, met up with my good friend Tina and decided an afternoon / evening would be had in the heart of the Cheshire country side. As luck happens, it was a lovely sunny day and we met at Bowden, and visited the lovely location of Dunham Massey Hall & Gardens. Being sunny, dressed accordingly given my limitations so wore long red skirt with white top with the last minute addition of the forgotten red sandals I had. Tina also looks resplendent in her outfit, being a mix black/white/grey long skirt with black t-shirt & short cardigan. We seem to look the part regardless. Well we had an enjoyable time walking around the lovely gardens, taking numerous pictures including one/two by other people. No one even notice us and if they did, just thought we were two girls out enjoying themselves which we were along with plenty of chat too. Eventually, it was time to go and we had to decide on somewhere to eat, which turned out to be a place called “Home” on the A56 near Bowden. It looked quiet but there was plenty of people inside and was guided to a table by the member of staff along with a nice greeting. Fortunately for us, we arrived just before 7, so took advantage of the cheaper menu. The food was good along with the service by the staff too although Tina had notice one or two of them taking extra notice of us but nothing to worry about - may be they could not believe how stunning we looked. LOL. It was about 9 ish and we decided to head to the Village, Manchester to end the day and by co-incidence met up with Kate at Taurus. Before we knew it was time to say our good bye’s and head home for what was a lovely day with fantastic company. Cant wait to do it again as it just felt “normal”.

My next outing was not until end of the month and this time met Kristina who has only come out of the closet in the last 12 months, this being I think her 3rd trip out and certainly her first away from the shops. It was decided a visit to Tatton Hall / Park was the thing to do as it been a while since either of us visited the location. On this occasion although the weather dry, a little chilly and windy, so causal jeans with suitable top was order of the day. Met Kristina near to the Park who was wearing a nice dress, complete with flat sandals. Again while visiting the Hall and the café, no one notice and treated with courtesy by all - cant expect any more. I had noted some parts of the Hall don’t seem to have change in over 20 yrs, since when I last visited. Certainly enjoyed the “Japenese” garden history and cultural themes. After that we had a nice walk in the park as by then got a little warmer. Again, it was time to go and think were to go for an evening meal. After a little driving round, we eventually found the “Swan with two nicks”, nr Bowden, off the A56 and not far from “Home” by co-incidence (last outing). This location was a typical country pub with the added feature of a nice restaurant which was busy. Guided to our table, we ordered out food, had a good natter, and the world pass us by including all & sundry in the restaurant. This was normal as it could be along with very friendly & courteous service from the staff! Oh yes the food was excellent and definitely a recommended location. It was now running late and decided to both head home but we were happy although a shame it had to end.

Although, I’m not getting out as often, they are made up in other ways by being out in the real world without the familiarity of the “Village” coming into it. However, sometimes between outings, I do get frustrated & fed up especially with lack of contact with other girls but hopefully this may change as time goes by.

As far as purchase’s have been concerned, very few really and the only significant purchase was a beige/ivory “Warehouse” mac that I’ve been seeking for a while. Its above knee length with nice pleats around the bottom giving a flared appearance, which helps in giving us girls more shape, which what I’m after. Unfortunately it is one of the down sides to our existing bodies, we tend not to have shape and there fore must create it - sometimes easier said than done but we get there somehow!

Anything else happened, oh yes. Unfortunately due to apparently alleged not so complimentary private remarks by a TV to some other girls’s about Transpose, Teela who runs the facility / business has kicked into touch the monthly Tea meetings on the basis of protecting her existing clientele and keeping away uninvited guests’s. Personally I can understand the reasoning behind it and it has got to be what is in the best interest of the business but somehow I’m not sure if there has not been a slight over reaction to it. As far as I’m able to see, the TV in question seems to be not a member of any of the known TV forums (by one) and there is definitely no public remarks made about Transpose either - in fact is anyone aware of it.? Transpose has been operating for about 3 / 4 years now and has always provided a good friendly service / facility to all TV’s and attempted to make all girls welcome, along with numerous recommendations, so not sure why some one needs to undermine Transpose (especially Teela) in consequence. Strange indeed. However, the backlash seems to be that there are now “private” meetings every now and then by invitation only to a couple of handfuls of selected girls. Clearly I seem not to be one of them, although some of my friends suggests this is an oversight as I’ve supported, assisted and recommended Transpose from almost when it started. However, I don’t think so as strangely I still get the monthly “Newsletter” ! You work that answer out then! LOL

Well that is enough for this entry, another due shortly!

April 2011 - Normalville!

Its been a couple of months since I’ve written in this blog but things have been quiet in that time, at home and on my outings. Since shaving my legs, it has been nice to wear 7/15 denier hosiery instead of the usual opaque’s. Consequently, my skirts have getting a little shorter although not too short though - I do have standards!

Manage to meet up with my sister again which is always nice and again we met at Cheshire Oaks and another meal at Café Rouge. Next time, we are there, I think Frankie & Benny’s could be our choice of eating establishment. Also a couple of evening outs in the Village with some friends too but the visits to the Village are not the same anymore - it is the same routine all the time. No problem with that but not on a regular occasion though. May be I’m finding another door on the level that I’m on but definitely “Normalville” is where I feel comfortable and strange it may seen, also generally a safe environment too.

Talking of “Normalville”, I’ve manage to meet up with my friend Tina on a couple of evenings. We met at the Stretton Fox Pub/Restaurant in Cheshire for a lovely girly evening mingling with “joe public”. Much to our surprise, it was busy but none the worst for it either - in fact added to the whole evening. The staff were friendly & courteous with the food being nice too. To be honest, I’m not sure if anyone actually notice us - may be they thought we were everyday girls afterall!

The second occasion was only a week ago, this time we decided Handforth, nr Wilmslow would be the location. We had agreed to meet at the Bulls Head Pub/Restaurant but before I met Tina there, I had decided to visit the nearby retail park where my favourite store is, namely M&S. Walking around M&S, seem quite normal and no one batted an eyelid. I had tried some shoes on and located a nice skirt on the small sale rail. Sadly the latter was not reduced after asking a Sales Assistant to do a price check. She was very friendly and had tried to interest me in other similar skirts. In the meantime, popped around the corner to the cash machine at Tesco’s which was busy, again no one seem to notice. Yay, it left me with a nice feeling and a boost to my much needed confidence. Made my way to the Bulls Head to meet and another similar evening was had in the same way as the Stretton Fox although a little quieter.

The above outing’s in my mind felt right and normal and Tina also has similar thoughts / feelings too. We both feel getting out in the real world and not tranny safe havens is what we want. I’m sure in time we will stretch the boundaries where we go but no different to what a normal woman would do. One thing for sure, being the everyday world, the above & future outings only possible because you are either on your own or with a friend, therefore you are not so obvious to joe public and more change in blending in. If there is more than two then it you might as well have a blue light flashing saying “tranny’s about”!

Strangely I had the option to go out last night to the Village to meet friends for the monthly Northern Angels but I had a change of heart and decided not to go. Mainly because it is not what I want and even allowing for meeting some of my friends, it has just become just routine, same place, same time and all that.

Finally, I had arranged to meet my cyber friend from Altrincham for an evening out in Manchester. Although the date & time had been arranged for over two months, sadly for me it became a non starter at the last moment and consequently had to let my friend down, something I was not happy with but out of my control. Unfortunately, an age old problem occurred again, namely a family member was about at the time I was suppose to be getting ready and there was nothing I could do about it. So bloody frustrating but what I could do in the circumstances. Hopefully we will eventually meet but may be its not meant to be. Mmmmm I will find out in the future.

February 2011 - I have legs!

Hello my little blog, we meet again but for once some positive news. Since I last wrote, I’ve been out 4 times including an outing with MR too. Are things looking up? Yes they are which makes a change and the future a little more rosy in consequence - in fact even a breakthrough which affects my appearance. More of this later.

My first outing was to Transpose monthly meeting in mid January. Given the money situation, it was a cheap night out, a chance to be “me” and meet some girls too. Better than nothing! However, I contacted my sister and she agreed to meet me early evening for a bite to eat at Cheshire Oaks. Fortunately for me, she paid the bill but we had a nice couple of hours catching up on various matters and by sheer co-incidence but a pleasant surprise, a couple of my friends, Tina & Mandy were having a meal too in Café Rouge before visiting Transpose. Eventually I arrived at Transpose and mingled with the girls along with chatting to Tina and Mandy again! I enjoyed the night and could not wait to be me again.

For the last three weeks, I’ve manage to get out on Wednesday evening’s - something I was attempting to avoid but have enjoyed them never the less. They have included the Northern Angels monthly gathering, an evening with MR and latterly a visit to Manchester Concord for the talk on safety by an GM Police Officer which was interesting and informative. During the evenings, I’ve caught up with a few friends and chatted about the future. May be things are looking up as some provisional plans have been made for future outings.

In the meantime, I’ve attempted to meet up with a cyber friend from Altrincham but sadly we have been thwarted by outside influences and still not met even after 12 months regular contact with each other. Neither of us will give up as both believe it will happen and we have a date in March in which it could then. Fingers cross but we seem to have a lot in common and would be a shame if we cant build on that.

In the light of recent Xmas / New Year matters dominating my thoughts and working hard to resolve the matters - on occasions leaving me mentally exhausted, things are now much better and there is light at the end of the tunnel after all. This has also lead to a positive change in MR’s thoughts / attitude towards KD which included an outing with me to the Village, a night we both enjoyed. However, the biggest change has been MR’s agreement to finally shave my legs! Something I wanted to do for years but would not do as it was part of an agreement / compromise to let me be the person I wish to be. So after 7 years since MR found out, I have finally have smooth legs! Yay its amazing and now nice to have the wider choice of shoes, hosiery and skirts to wear especially during the summer. This IS a big step for me and MR but I do appreciate her consideration and acceptance in allowing me to do this. Yes it took a lifetime for this to happen but it was worth the wait! Yay!