December 12 - Lets look forward!

Well it is almost the end of the year and its time to look back on the past year but more importantly look forward to 2013. But first, anything recent with Christmas being around?  

December has always been a quiet month for me for getting out, mainly because of work and family matters, just never easy to find “me” time. However, manage to get out twice with what I call quick visits to the Village to meet a couple of friends but that was it. Strange I had other opportunities to get out but no one seemed to be available. Ah well that is how the cookie crumbles sometimes. My next outing certainly wont be until next year that is for sure. Manage to purchase some clothes recently including a dress, 3 skirts and couple of tops, the latter for the summer as and when it arrives next year. 

Looking back over the year, it has been not as I hoped for in some ways especially in getting out on a regular basis. In fact my outings this year have been fewer than previous years yet I present myself better and confident too. Hopefully, I can change this for next year but this does hinge on meeting more people and making new friends - well that is my goal anyway. Highlights of the year have certainly been my trip to Birmingham and the couple of days at Sparkle - the latter is a surprise bearing in mind I prefer not to be there! May be that tells a story of 2012? At a personal level, I’ve been happier within myself this year but that has been down to M.R. and my work colleagues keep me going when K.D. physically can’t be around. The surprise of the year was my daughter knowing I was a TGirl but unfortunately only chatted about “me” once and never been mentioned again. I find this sad as clearly my daughter don’t wish to know or be interested which is not the way I hoped for but at the same time, not the way I bought up my kids either as I’ve always stated that it is the person that matters and not what they look like. Ah well, at least it is not total rejection but it still seems, it is still a secret!  

As for next year, well as stated, my main priority to get out as often as I can with old and new friends. May be this will include less visits to the Village and more elsewhere, I certainly hope so. I am aware, I have opportunity to get further afield and meet other girls I know via the forums, a couple of met previously but be nice to see them on their home ground so to speak. I certainly know that I am more content and comfortable in female company as they seem to treat me with respect and except me for who I am rather what I look like - that is nice. 

Well, this just leaves me to say Happy New Year and best wishes to all who read this blog, hopefully your wishes come true for next year also. Please take care and see you next year my little blog. xx

November 12 - Looking towards the future.

Just an average month in the life of K.D. , well that what it seems to be. Since my last entry, I’ve manage have more thoughts about the future which made me realise that although I never thought it was relevant, but I’ve spend 95% of my working life in the company of women and this even applies in my existing employment. So what does that tell me - simply I get on ok with women and feel at home in the company of them. I must stress, never in a sexual way, just pure friendship. Now in the light of my previous blog entry, I think the penny has finally dropped, it is better to be out and about with them too as “me”, again in pure friendship terms. There are advantages in this, especially being in the company of genetic girls is I become one of them too for all intent and purposes as “joe public” would be none the wiser. Personally, I have no issues about passing / blending in anyway as I dress appropriately and hopefully genetic girls would not have issues either? I suppose only one way of finding out but ....... a problem to be solved as yet but at least a direction in having genuine friends maybe?  

Over the last few months, all the girls I know in a particular place, have got to find out about me and accordingly have seen images of me too. Seven of them so far, have even seen me live and in simple terms, they have been impressed with what they have seen, seeking more information and also importantly destroyed the media / public perception of a TV too. The reaction has been better than expected including “wow”, “omg” “look good” and I “pass” too. Well put it this way, some never even realise it was “me” which I suppose says a lot. I know some of them would like me to go out with them but as yet I’m not sure if that is a genuine request or just a bit of fun for them? May be a step too far in this instance especially being local too as family considerations must come into this also. 

Manage to keep in contact with some cyber girlfriends and in a couple of instances, even a meeting has taken place is which another step forward. However, as with all TGirl friends, there is always baggage / personal circumstances that prevents a proper friendship from forming sadly. Alas the nature of being a TGirl but at least with the two girls, we know we are real now rather than a faceless name on the internet. Contact with a couple of close friends seems to be sparse at the moment due to their changing circumstances but we will meet up again when things improve at their end. You never give up on your genuine friends. 

On the home front, one thing that has become very evident, that M.R. has finally accepted who I am and also accepts my needs of being “me” too. It has taken a long time for this to happen but it does make life easier for both of us now - sort of we can move forward and get on with “our” lives  in its entirety rather than keep discussing K.D. matters. Another reason for looking towards the future too. 

Outings have still been sparse, in fact since my last entry, been out twice but that has been in the last two weeks. The first occasion, met up with my sister at Cheshire Oaks, had a bite to eat then went to the Unique meeting in Llandudno to meet up with one of the cyber friends, namely Angela who is a good looking and very presentable girl - mmmm she has lovely complexion but as yet not ventured into the big wide world. There were other girls at the meeting and I was made very welcome too - may be I will go again but make a day of it with some sightseeing in the area. The second outing was unusually, a Saturday (24th November) and also to Manchester. Not often I get out on a Saturday as there are reasons for this but not an issue never the less. On this occasion, met up with another cyber friend, Kathy at her home and she was a lovely person too. Sadly she had not been out for quite a while due to personal reasons but hopefully this may change in the future and we get the chance to do it together? After that, headed to the monthly Transforum meeting in the Village which was enjoyable along with very guest speakers too covering a few relevant but interesting topics. Again I met up with another TS girl (Bev) who I had been in communication recently and found her interesting and a straight but a lovely lady. Afterwards a few of us went for a bite to eat and an enjoyable time was had. It is hoped I can meet Bev again in the future. After the meal I got change into another outfit and met up with a local girl I know, Paula, who I had not seen for a while but had invited me along and to meet her other friends too. We visited some of the delightful bars in the Village before I headed home at 2.00am. All in all, a varied interesting but enjoyable day was had. 

Manage to sell more clothes on Ebay again, raising some extra cash for the piggy bank but not really making any in roads into my large wardrobe - a further clear out is required but still purchase a dress in the meantime at the recent M&S sale. Crazy but it was bargain and must have!

Well, my little blog, time for bed but at least the future is a little brighter and hopefully a couple more outings before xmas too?   

October 12 - More thoughts!

Recently, I met Tina for a Tuesday evening out in the Village which was enjoyable but strange too. As it was a Tuesday, not expecting to see any other girls out but one Yorkshire lass appeared and un-expectantly join us for tea & scones in the Richmond Tea Rooms. Yes no fun being on your own but this was the first time I met Tina in seven weeks and we were attempting to play catch up on the gossip and news. The girl was friendly and talkative with some interesting stories exchanged. Afterwards we went to Velvet for a bite to eat but that was short lived as no sooner we had got our drinks and about to order our food, we were too much for the restaurant to take! There was a power black out and were advised that no drinks / food would be possible! So off we went next door to Taurus for our bite to eat and play catch up! It was during this catch up which ultimately has led to my next thoughts. It is all about what we T-Girls are looking for being “us” and what we are seeking and enjoying being “us”. 

My enjoyment in being "me", is meeting like minded girls like Tina but also getting out and about too (in good company) - which is a big part of me and as much as I enjoy going to "tranny" only places, it is not what I want all the time as I enjoy the outside world for want of a better description. But is the reality wanting to go anywhere as “me” is seeking the impossible and / or my expectations are so high, that no other TGirl can ever meet them for numerous reasons. These reasons vary as one thing for certain, no two T-Girl circumstances are the same, nor what they are seeking is always the same which makes it harder for me. I certainly know, that I have not spent the last few years, spending loads of money on clothes, make-up etc, attempting to look the part of a woman (but still need improvements) just to go to "tranny" only places. Christ I may of saved a fortune and various discussion's with M.R. by just keeping it simple for that purpose, just slap any make-up on face, cheap wig, slutty type clothes and still blend in a tranny only venue! But that is not me and would not be happy with that either.  

With saying the above, this is no reflection on other T-Girls but may be the conversation I had with Tina, has unwittingly re-focus my thoughts on what I'm seeking and what is actually possible given my personal circumstances. It is easier for me due to my work day offs to get out during the day, certainly less bother and not worrying about the 3pm deadline I have when I'm getting ready. There are family reasons for this deadline which is a complete pain for me and means often hanging around / killing time in some way to meet friends for the evening only which is no fun when you are on your own - there is only a certain amount of window shopping you can do! :-))  This is no fault of anyone as it is just my personal circumstances. But this creates other problems including on many a occasion, not getting out what so ever because for an example, the timing of which can be awkward due to my getting ready routine and family circumstances crossing paths at the wrong time which is extremely frustrating to say the least. Yes, I have been off two days this week, had a chance to be "me" but besides no friend to meet ....... nothing and a waste! 

It is clear to me now that seeking new friends is always going to be difficult and won't happen overnight - in fact, if ever! So far this year, it has been hard work to find like minded girls - too many time wasters around and along with those looking for fun / sex only which I have no interest in!! Any girls I do come across, seem to make it hard work to communicate, never been out or personal circumstances are interfering. When I do find a like minded girl, always seem to be in the far flung places of the UK making meetings almost impossible!! My "me" needs are never going to co-incide with other T-Girls circumstances which makes me think I wish I could just switch off being "me" for ever - save less hassle, time and more problems but sadly I know that won't happen - it can't because KD is "me" and happy when I am "me". So what next - no idea but if you are reading this, you are local and like to do similar things, please get in touch but won’t hold my breath though! 

Does all that make sense, may be, may be not but just thinking out aloud and see if there will be answers forthcoming in the future?    

July / August 12 - Sparkle & life.

Hello blog, it has been a while and yes I actually attended “Sparkle” on the Friday and Saturday, 13th & 14th July for the first time in four years! The question is, did I enjoy it? Yes I actually did but that is thanks to my friends who I met. Met up with Tina for the Friday evening at Eden for the burlesque evening and I dressed accordingly. For the outfit I wore, see image below  and I must admit I felt good about myself too. The outfit all came together as I thought and topped off for a change with nice false eyelashes and appropriate eye make up too. The evening was enjoyable as the entertainment was good, food and chat with a small group of friends too. Later in the evening literally bumped into Lisa from Leeds in the Molly House much to our surprise and more chat and drink was had. Eventually I got back to my hotel room a wee bit tired. 

The following morning, got ready into a casual outfit and met up with Tina again - wondered around the Village, a few (soft) drinks and generally met some old faces from the past including Stephanie another old friend of many years who was on an afternoon visit. Later on, went back to Tina’s hotel room and got change into another outfit which I felt good about again then off we went to Villagio’s for a group meal with other girls. Later on we headed across the road to Eden for more girly chat and laughter and eventually headed home at about 1.00am on Sunday morning, happy but sad at the same time. 

Looking back at those two days, I actually did enjoy myself at Sparkle much to my surprise. Yes there were some sights to say the least, some girls don’t look in the mirror or just don’t care but to balance it there were some nice outfits too with some girls really made the effort and looked the part too. The question is, will I go back next year? Mmmm decide that nearer the time I think! 

Since my last entry, I suppose the question, have things improved in general? Actually no, but at least they are not got worst, so that is a step forward I suppose. Since the job interview, I have not applied for a single vacancy mainly because there are none! Well when I mean none, none that I am qualified for for starters or the vacancies are for 4/8hr part-time or just temporary short term contracts. None of which is what I’m seeking but just proves the job situation is shit contrary to what government sources are suggesting or wish to paint a picture - they have no idea. So basically, I’m stuck and cant do anything about it - sadly just got to get on with it and keep fingers cross. However, the last job knock back is still affecting me, even worst by the fact I have ask for feedback, twice over and they have ignored it and this is from an employer who say they give it! So much for their excellent customer service they seem to strive on! 

Things with M.R. are much better than they were which is a good step forward too - the spark is coming back so it has been hard though by the fact we still get limited time together because of our work rota’s but at least its moving forward. Thankfully, we are off for a couple of weeks soon so much needed “us” time will be forthcoming but alas no holiday due to no money. May be we will manage a couple of days out somewhere?

Outings since my last entry have been few with the exception of Sparkle but I’ve coped with that in the best way I can - keeping my mind occupied with other things but “me” is never too far away never the less. If I could dress more often or at least have outings back to the level of a year ago then things in my mind would be much better. My last outings have been in Manchester and just for the evening only but they have been enjoyable. But as always sad to revert at the end of the evening. Hopefully, outing’s in the future will pick up again but that will be subject to money, yet again. 

One thing that has happened but only recently, I’ve finally shaved my arms much to M.R’s unhappiness but this was something i been wanted to do for a while. M.R. cant understand why which is fair enough but this is about being the person I am and I’m not just referring to “me” either. On this occasion, this was not discussed with M.R. beforehand which was not ideal I suppose but once it was done, it was done. Since I shaved, mentally I have become more at eased with myself although not had the opportunity to be “me”. It seems if a weigh has come off my shoulders - mmm strange really to feel like this but it is true never the less. In the light of this situation, I can actually first of all, now wear some tops I’ve got and never worn because of my arms - although they are long sleeve, need not to worry about them moving up my arm. Secondly, I’m able to have a sort out of tops now and put some on Ebay - hopefully with the proceeds purchase some new shorter sleeve tops?

Finally, my thoughts go out to my good friend Tina, who recently had the sad bereavement of her mum, something that I know how that feels. It has not been easy for Tina that I know but at least she now knows her mum is at peace and sense of relief too that is she not suffering anymore. Hopefully some time in the future, we will meet again as it has been a while since we seen each other and when that happens, I suspect there will be much chatting between us. 

   

June 12 - Where do I go now!

Not a good day, in fact last few days have not been good but today were I had a little bit of light and some hope, it was extinguish by a simple and cold e/mail! A job I had applied for where I got through a few stages and the interview too were I could do no more, I was simply told “unsuccessful on this occasion” end of! I wanted the job more than most but this knock back is going to have more lasting damaged as it has knocked my confidence no end for job interviews for the future. Clearly I am able to get through the application / assessment stages but now’t else!  Yes, I have had knock backs before and we carry on hoping something else will turn up but that is just not happening. How much can I take especially I am in some people’s eye’s I am over the hill?

I suppose the bottom line, I just don’t come over as the person they wish to see me as and I am sorry I cannot be that perfect person regardless of the clothes I wear! What do people want? Looking back over my life, besides my good lady M.R. everybody else seem to wish to avoid me regardless of who I am in the everyday world. I’ve mentioned it previously, I don’t have many friends and this applies to my other life too - I suppose that tells me a lot about myself but I can’t change who I am now surely? I always thought I was a sincere genuine person, a good sense of humour, considerate and a caring but straight talking person and people would accept me for who I am! Why cannot people look underneath and why they alway prefer see the outside all of the time? Clearly kidding myself in a big way and other’s may be prefer me to be false and non caring person? A sad reflection of our society?? 

Currently I hate my existing employment especially since December last year where I had no choice in the change of job role as the alternative was no job at all! Since then, my work hours have been shit, all over the place yet I work part time! Something just not right there. Besides playing havoc with wishing to be “me”, my time with M.R. is like passing ships in the night, and were in the past, we spent at least two days a week together (mainly weekends), now we are pinching a day together!! A recent example were in the 5 weeks leading up to Friday gone, we manage one whole day together! Wow! And because we been good, we also manage to have a weekend together just gone but not sure when the next one will be! Double wow! This is affecting our relationship, there is no doubt about it and for once my employer will take the blame for it! 

Strange thing really the girls who I work with are nice, generally good to me, can have a laugh with a few of them and other’s may be tolerate me as I do get moody but then again am I surprised in attempting to be all person’s me!! The poor girls cannot imagine what is going through my brain - strange really the only person who seems to understand me is of course M.R. but even she find’s it hard at times so what chance have others - none I suppose! In my current job, I always give what I can and maintain a professional approach especially to customer’s - give no one cause to complain but not sure how long this can go on for - I need the lousy money paid to help makes end’s meet but it is just keeping thing’s at bay rather making any inroads into the home finances but something has got to give sooner or later that is for sure - a catch 22 situation and the bomb is ticking faster at the moment! 

This weekend gone was not a good anyway, as another anniversary of the death of my mum passed by! My thought’s are always with my mum and I (& M.R. for that matter) often wish she was still here - they say time is a great healer but I find sometimes, that is not so easy to do, it still hurts, believe me! My mum is never far away as she is on my little finger but still not close enough though! Hey mum, if you are watching over me, please give me some guidance as I am in need of it at the moment. 

In the light of what happened this afternoon, even my eldest son rang me to offer words of support and wisdom which believe me was something special, yet he still text me later to let me he was there if I needed to chat? That really touch my heart in a big way but oh I wish I could do that, I suppose I could but he would only get half the story! Regardless, the thought was there and that means a lot. 

Oh yes, it is now Tuesday morning and have the wonderful thought of going into “that” place again, something to look forward too (not) especially in my present frame of mind! Yes I will go but as usual, my mood changes as soon as I walk in through the front door - yes I am aware of it but can’t do anything to stop it from happening! Yes, a job is a means to an end, but this employment is not providing that in anyway what so ever - it is making my life a misery, worst than when I worked at a previous employer from a few years ago and that is saying something! 

  

Well time to go to bed but if you are interested little blog, yes manage to get out twice in last couple of weeks, nice time was had with Tina and sister. Also have a date at “Sparkle” in mid July but will I have the money to go - may be if I can find a money tree from somewhere!! 

Finally, for fuck sake, could someone give me a break at the moment, I certainly could do with one!! Now I wake up and back to reality - more shit and this is a very long tunnel at the moment!! 

May 12 - Its quiet and "me".

Since my outing in Birmingham which was 3 months ago, I’ve manage to get out once to meet a friend and that was in early April. Either side of that, not a chance and certainly as things stand at the moment at least another 2/3 weeks before any chance of doing so! Even then there is no guarantee of getting out then. Yes there are reasons for this but mainly to do with both money and work, more than anything. As for the former, just none what so ever although on the bright side the bills are being paid - sign of the times I suppose but not sure this will improve in the near future. 

As for work, well would you believe I work part-time, yet my hours are spread over 5 days per week but I’ve covered this problem in a previous blog entry. Nothing has changed and still looking for another proper part-time job. Yes remarkably there are vacancies out there but although I have plenty of experience and knowledge, I do feel I am been put onto the scrap heap which is frustrating and very disheartening at times. All I know I need to get out from my present employment as soon as possible but will I ever though!

Because of lack of being me, at least things at home are quiet but even then there has been some issues to deal with between M.R. and myself. However, here is not the place to discuss them but some is related to previous comments above. 

Ah yes, “me”, this what this blog is about but not much I can write about “me” - in fact who is “me” because there is a distinctive lack of “me” over recent times. Yes, I’m rambling but that is how I feel though. My contact with other friends is at an all time low, basically two girls keep in contact with me, one being Tina and the other Julia, who unfortunately lives in Northampton so “messenger” is our contact there. It would be nice to see Julia again but ............ ! No other so-called friends even bother with me these days, probably think I’ve dropped off the radar! Currently, I’m am trying to make new contact with other girls but that is not easy to say the least. A couple of girls I have got friendly with but it is early days in the friendship stakes, as for meeting, well it may happen, then again, like others before, byeee or drifted away as we not getting anywhere.  

My only proper outing was at the beginning of April were I met Tina at Salford Quays for a quick look around and a nice pleasant meal at Cafe Rouge by the Lowry. Afterwards, we went to the Village but that was part reluctance by both of us and ultimately agreed that it was the wrong move - should of went somewhere else! Although I enjoyed the outing and with my personal thanks to Tina for paying the food bill, I did find it a struggle to get ready though. It was not because of did not want to go out and be “me” but just because of being lack of “me” consistently.  Amazingly, and a lot of girls may envy me but I do have a big wardrobe of clothes (e.g. about 60 skirts for starters) but given my present circumstances I am luck to wear one! This is just crazy, I want to be “me” but my circumstances are just not playing ball - what is this all about? 

Even my interest in some of the forums is waning. I look on them, some have no recent activity which says a lot and then a couple of others have activity but by the same click of people rambling on about the lives and their problems. On occasions, I’ve tried to make some input but all to no avail - giving the impression of I am being ignored! May be its not on purpose but that how it feels, then again may be they don’t like me? Probably the latter I suspect! 

Ah well, time to go, must make dinner before I go to work in my part time role (not) early this afternoon. Mmm Just looking at my "hit" count - no ones looks at this blog anyway, so clearly talking to myself - I feel better for that too (not)! 

March 12 - Friendly Birmingham

Things at the moment are quiet and money at a premium - basically there is none, therefore no outings what so ever since my Birmingham trip four weeks ago and none planned for the rest of this month either - all because no money. Even one of my closest friends as kindly offered to take me out which was such a lovely thought but had to refuse because of my work schedules yet again! Currently, I feel frustrated and down - hence being quiet I suppose but must keep going and hopefully something will turn up?

However, on the bright side, at least I had a nice couple of days with Tina on our visit to Birmingham back in February. This trip had been planned for about 3 months and had decided we would go on a Monday to take the opportunity to visit “Outskirts” who have meetings twice a month at the “Equator Bar” in Hurst St and stay overnight at the near by Ibis Hotel. I had arranged to collect Tina from her house but arrived a little late to an emergency at home. Anyway, I wore a brown co-ordinated skirt outfit with my new M&S boots to travel down to Birmingham but first port of call was diesel for the car otherwise not get far! Likewise we stopped once at a M6 service station on the way down as I had no dinner. As you would expect, I was just part of the everyday world at those locations and we eventually arrived at the hotel. Parking in the area was relevantly simple and cheap too.

Now we had arrived in our hotel room and neither of us wasted anytime in getting changed as we were both hungry. Tina and I both wore dresses for the evening and Tina looked as ever, lovely and natural. Eventually we were ready and headed to the Acadian Centre where there were a number of eating establishments and decided on the Las Iguanas Restaurant serving Brazilian / Mexican food. After a couple of hours after nice food and excellent service by the staff, it was time to head for the Equator Bar and find out for ourselves what Outskirts was all about. On entering the bar, it was reasonably packed with many girls in attendance and we stayed for a couple of hours, chatting with some of the girls there including Sally Payne, our host. Overall, we found at least on that evening, all the girls made good efforts in looking nice, the venue was open, clean and drinks were reasonably priced too. Certainly we would recommend a visit if you are in the area. Afterwards, although being a Monday, headed to “The Core” bar/club as it was open and it seem to be the favourite place for some of the “Outskirts” girls. Unfortunately besides the girls, it was quiet other than the music - loud was not the word but we decided bed time was calling and headed back to the hotel.

After a reasonable nights sleep, Tina and I got ready, departed hotel and put our things in the car ready for the journey home later in the day. We had decided before hand, that we would visit the Bull Ring shopping centre which was literally less than 10 mins walk away but need breakfast first before we could do that. In consequence ended up in a Wetherspoons pub as it was cheap and has it happens, plentiful and tasteful too. We headed for the shopping centre mainly window shopping, well certainly in my case anyway but unknown to me Tina had other idea’s! Amongst the many places we visited, it included House of Fraser too were there is a wig outlet which had been recommended, this had clearly interested Tina. Having found the outlet, we found ourselves surrounded by some lovely wigs, some of which caught our eyes especially Tina. Jenny the sales advisor made us welcome and at ease. Well cut a story short, Tina purchase a lovely new wig and we made our exit. Afterwards, further window shopping was had and along with the customary visit the Mac outlet and a short break at Starbucks. Later on we had a quick visit to Moor St Station as Tina was particular interested in the way they had preserved it as a typical 1930’s railway station. By this time out feet were wary and time to head home. The journey home although peak hour, was uneventful and eventually said our goodbyes to each other and that was the nice adventure over.

Looking back at the two days, it was nice being me, it seem natural and a good time was had for both of us. I think the biggest satisfaction to come out it, is the way we just blended in while shopping in the city centre, there was no indications by anyone that they anything different about us (well there was not really) and we got on about our business just like everybody else. Everyone was friendly and we cannot wait to go back again to Birmingham.

Well, that is I can write about and the above trip was 4 weeks ago - how time flies but it will nice when I can make an appearance again - mmm when will that be though?

February 12 - Interesting times!

First entry for this year which I suppose is good in a number of ways as it means things are OK? In some ways they are and no complaints what so ever there but other parts of my life are not ideal such as work!

Ive been in my present employment for over 4 years now and everything was fine until just after Christmas when the business decided my role was no longer required and had to do another role instead - basically they moved the goal-posts and Management done the dirty on me. Well at least I have not lost my job but these days although I’m part-time, the hours I work now are just playing havoc with parts of my life, leaving or finding time hard to be me! Well, I’ve decided to find another job in the present economic climate - don’t laugh but one must try! I did have an interview earlier in the week but i doubt I will get the job, simply I felt the interview could of gone better but at least I got an interview and take that as a positive!

Like numerous people at the moment, spare money is really not readily available so it does restrict outings as such but so far manage to have a handful so far this year which is not too bad. However, on the downside, they have all been in Manchester, mainly in the Village but again cost comes into this and lack of job free time to allow me to get ready without worrying about the call of the family! However, on the bright side of these outings, I have finally met two girls, Lisa B and Sarah who I have been chatting too for a quite a while. In fact with Lisa B, it’s been about 6 years chatting and never met! Lisa B is as good as her images I’ve seen and such a lovely person. Sarah had only been out once as herself, the first time just before the New Year to a local theatre but so this was her first occasion visiting the Village. Sarah looked fantastic and with a lovely personality too - certainly wised up to my and Tina’s wicked sense of humour while out with us. Hopefully , it wont be too long before I see Sarah & Lisa again but no doubt we will continue to communicate to chat via Messenger.

Talking about lack of money previously well much to my surprise, I have not purchase any new items for my wardrobe this year! Not so bad to be honest as my wardrobe is big enough already and a good excuse to wear some of the clothes I’ve not worn yet! At least one way of saving money I suppose!

Just over a week ago, while I was out, I received a text from M.R. informing me that my daughter has known about me for a few years but never said anything! For personal reasons, here is not the place to discuss this matter but just say this revelation came as a bit of a shock! M.R. and I had made a decision not to inform our children about me and this remain’s the case as we have to consider our sons too. Well the bottom line, although I have not had the opportunity to chat to my daughter about “me” yet, although it will happen in due course, it seems she is ok with it and I still remain to be the person as she normally see’s me as always. At least a positive step forward and one that I can take on board without too much of a problem.

Looking at the rest of 2012, I don’t have any definite plans for outings, so it just taking things as they come and see what happens but hopefully one or two with M.R and my sister too. May be my ongoing plans to go to the races and a theatre visit may happen too? Certainly will see Julia again, now with her boyfriend, George and when chatted to her, she seems to be happy and content which is nice to hear especially after last year’s events in her life - she deserves some good fortune. Well time to finish this entry but my nest outing is only around the corner when Tina and I are going to Birmingham for the day/night which will include a visit to “Outskirts” too. It should be a good couple of days. More of this in my next entry hopefully.